Self Vs Self.

My mind is out to get me.

(Aright, that sounded like I was talking about some sort of psychological disorder...)

No, I'm serious.

It refuses to just make a decision and stay with it. One moment it's this boy, and the next moment it's that boy. Sure, you could blame it on the recent occurrences in my life, but I'll be putting all the blame on my mind.

Stupid brain.
(That was slightly oxymoronic, ha.)

Anyways...
Story time!

About a week and a half ago, a friend and I were talking in Calc (yes, I still love Calc) when he suddenly said: "So, word on the street is that you and (we need a name, don't we?) Mr. Hot Stuff are a thing."

Well, as you might have guessed, I reacted with: "What? Where did you hear this?"

(Alright, just saying...There's a reason Mr. Hot Stuff is named that. His body makes my jaw drop and apparently he's got quite the package as well ;]...I almost called him Delivery Boy. For obvious reasons.)

This friend then goes on to tell me that it's the talk of his whole group of friends, which are also BFFs with Mr. Hot Stuff.

Because I didn't quite know how to react to this news (and it was definitely news to me), I begged him to get the word OFF the streets.

A few days later he comes back with an explanation for me: "Oh, and Mr. Hot Stuff thanks you're super hot and has this major thing for you."

?!?!?!?!?!

...yah, basically.

I don't remember what I did when I heard that, but it ended in something along the lines of: "Oh..."

Since then, after I did just about everything I could to dismiss the rumor that something was going on, I realized that I wouldn't mind at all if it actually developed into something. ARG.

It gets better, trust me:

Today I found out that all his friends had been telling him that he didn't have a chance with me, so he's moved on.

Oh damn.

Yup.

And if you're wondering about Mr. Nice Guy, he's out of the picture as well.
Why? Well a friend of mine (the same one that was convinced that him and I were on the brink of becoming a couple) declared her more-than-just-friends feelings she had for him.

THAT, again.

Again.