All Jumbo-ed Up.

It's almost midnight, and I'm in a rather weird mood.

One of those not happy, not sad, not angry, not glad, indescribable (why does that word look so weird?) moods.

All I want to do right now is listen to "See You Again" and ponder things. Anything, really. My life at home, my life at school, the friends in my life, and the absolute lacking of a romantic life. Ha.

For the past year or so, I've been having lots of these weird moments, and during all of them, I've sort of just shut myself off from the rest of the world. It doesn't sound healthy, and I don't doubt that is isn't, but during these moments, I'm allowed to tidy things up in my mind.

It seems as if during my daily happenings, all the information I currently have and the new information (about people, places, events) I'm obtaining have experience many natural disasters and have fallen off of their neatly organized shelves. Usually, I'm too busy to take the time to put everything back in their nice little stacks, and my mind gets all jumbo-ed up.

Then, I have one of those moods.

I swear, they're amazing. It's time I get to myself (which I haven't been able to have much of lately) and clear up the mess made by a hurricane/tsunami/earthquake/tornado.

For a while after I've had a mental cleaning session, the decisions I make tend to be more rational and not so sudden.

This, I truly believe, is the reason why I haven't kicked someone in the face yet. I mean, that sort of action is one that I have barely been able to ignore.

Everything and everyone around me seems to suck. There's some sort of awful situation shouting "surprise!" in my face around every corner and the people in my life are even worse.

For the past five days, I've been keeping myself buried in a deathly large pile of homework just so I can ignore everyone when they want to talk about one terrible incident or another. I mean, it's the hardest thing to be a good listening friend when you can barely hear your own thoughts.

Physically, I haven't been doing so well either. I haven't been sleeping well because a)I hardly actually fall completely asleep and b)I think I'm tightening my muscles in my sleep. When I woke up this morning, every muscle in my upper body was really tense and really sore.

Ugh.

Well, at least I'm mentally "tidied up" now.

I have five straight days of bad.

It's gotta be time for some good, right?

RIGHT?!