Swear Battle.

Admit it. We all have our downfalls. Our personality flaws.

Most of us try not to overanalyze it, or pretend it's not that. But then there are some that accept it as is.

Until today, that's what I'd done, but I realized that even a simple fault as indecisiveness can lead to much more. For example, a long drawn-out swear battle with oneself.

It was nothing more than a "stay or go" situation. And even that is making it a bigger deal than it actually was.

The waiting I had to go through wasn't all that terrible, but the fact that I was arguing with myself the whole time due to the waiting...unbelievable.

"Would I be a bad person if..."
"But then again, I promised..."
"I know, but how long should I wait..."
"Why can't I just leave, since I've got to..."
"What if I'm the only option..."
"I feel terrible, because..."
"Would I be a bad person if..."

To make matters worse, I blamed myself. Yes, I did.

Now that I think back on it, it wasn't my fault, not in the least bit. If anything, I should have been angry with him. I should be ignoring him for the next two weeks, and then follow that up with a month of evil glaring, finally ending it with a yelling session that'd make him wish he had skipped practice that day.

Too bad he apologized. Too bad I accepted.

Sometimes, I wish I was a bad person.